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do unto others what you want
others to do unto you.
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ANN CHERYL TING come back to loco. anyway cheryl do u know u can still use the same url for our new blog? YUP! so ask me haha n we'll still be at loco. alamak yuey i tot u and ann coming down to club with us!!! i was expecting u all u know. anyway ok this fri see u. and HANSEN good to see u. i'll call u i promise. eh wait. where u gonna be this fri?
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this is for you click click.
cmon, applaude my html skills! woohooo.
lets all move house.
a shopping trip which was supposed to end up in a new phone, new pairs of shoes, new tops and at least a pair of jeans saw me carrying one bag of school clothes home.
HUMPH.
i am pissed!
motorola vs samsung?? v3i (i want the platinium bronzey coloured one) vs d520 (the slim sleek slide one). ooohh.
one store which really deserves mention would be mango. it was so damn packed, even though i went in and saw some stuff i wanted, the whole image of that mango sale thingy was so bad, reminds me of previous years. ughhh. makes one want to faint right there in the store, and there was this really vivid image of myself being in a jungle fighting for food and survival. if i were an animal i would probably die, i was stoned shocked. bleck.
actually forgot my main purpose in going shopping: jeans! but oh well that can wait. haha.
no shoes to be found too, just saw flip flops flip flops and more flip flops. couldnt even find the pair of black heels i wanted, the tie up ballet ones. bahh.
aw damn. babyphat has the sexiest shoes ever!! anyone sayin u dont like baby phat im gonna kick ur ass. for real.
ANYWAY. not like anyone's interested in my damn shopping. nvm, just needed to get some stuff out of my system.
im gona be going back to coffee-ciggie combo. power hit! yay.
die england die. die die die.
make me a happy girl today.
dieeeee.
ANN, i miss u dahling.
GRACE, see ya wed and fri.
MUACKS TO U BOTH!
yay ann's moving back soon soon!!!
westies unite yo.
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sad... ...
and so pathetic... ...
yeah, sorry, i lost my dignity again, why does it becomes an issue with u? even though u were the one who offered and threw it in my face, becos i lost whatever dignity i had with u, ages ago... tt's why it matters so how. i dunno who reads my blog, but yeah... i didnt ask him after tt. i just felt so bad, after tt... i know everythign and everything, the fact tt u only sms/call me when there's noone else left, and whenever u're at zouk, so i'm saying wed and fri.. yup. just sad, when someone who used to matter so much to u, just treats u like smtg to hang arnd the arm. and it's fuckign shitty to ask for a favour from pple who treat u like tt, no matter whatever the circumstances are. and the most ironic thing was tt, it wasnt even MY own friend, tt was so fuckign cheapsake, miscommunication. i didnt make it clear, tt's y i was wondering y MY own friend was lidat, then i realised it wasnt my friend, when i opened my mouth, thank god, the stupid idiots went off. IDIOTS, at my expense, my pride is very strong. esplly with him, i lost ALL of my pride a yr back, and i'm not gonna do it again.
i heard so many stories at zouk, at dempsey. dun understand why. nope nope.
at least i tried to stop thinking abt it when i was at zouk, the music was so awesome, but when u reach home, and there;s no friends, no music arnd, yeah, then it just sank in...
but cheryl said tt it wasnt embarassing for me, but for him, cos he cldnt liv up to what he said, but i dunno i just feel blah...
i dun hate him, i dun think he's bad, but i just dunwan him arnd me in tt kind of manner, cos all along, it was just hanging arnd on his arm. and he insults me, when he speaks to me. so fucking bastard, he doesnt realise it, but he does, it's all in a sexual way. as much as gusy think tt it's flattering, i dun think so, i have enough of guys speaking to me in tt way, i dunwan pple tt matter to me nor used to matter to me, to speak in tt way, it's degrading to whatever we have... so maybe we nv had anythign at all...
but all in all, i managed to clear my mind nd stop feeling tt way in zouk, thanks to canto five ten, i like tt game, i dun care how kiddish SOME pple find it, i liek it, and we finally had supper with justin, haha, usually we will be too high or tired, and at the very least norman got high, slighty so, but at least, he wasnt his usual quiet stoned self.
so i guess it was a gd night, and i digged the cap tt martin gave me, THANKS!!!
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i'm gonna do a gracie baby, and start a new private blog all for myself, byebye loco, maybe once in a while, but yeah, grace is right, it's too public, cos we're so big mouth and posted the add on our friendster. loco will just be surface stuff, when i feel like it...
moving on from loco...
and it's gonna be private. no one can read it. yup...
stay home day 1:
woke up abt 5plus, went to meet ann n wt cuz its ann's bday!
drinks with elgin n his friends at esmirada. grace n daryl came down.
left super early.
success factor 8/10: because i almost succeeded, wldnt have gone out if not for annie baby.
stay home day 2:
woke up late again, met grace elgin n his friends, supposedly dinner at gelare, but ended up at ikea then shenton way for dinner at some fish rice whatever place.
drinks at paulander (or paulaner?) at millenia walk, haha opp our ohsofamiliar lao di fang. the beer was good, the dark one i mean. and the mugs they came in! woah. i like.
decided to go join ben at egan's house to watch SWEDEN ENGLAND. ben dropped me off at hol v. i made him go round n round n round looking for a non-existent block. IMSOSORRY!! damn how could i have heard blk6 as blk 61???
grrrr.
hol v kopitiam, then to egan's house. i want a little apartment to myself, my sis can come stay if she wants to and ann and grace too then we can have little sleepovers in our stripey pjs n ann can have her red wine and gracie can have her lychee white wine and i can have beer plus both mentioned above cuz i like all!! muahahaha.
disappointing england sweden match.
2-2 draw. pui.
i thought england was scary in the beginning, esp with rooney ard, HAHA bet everyone was laughing at his pissed off face at being subbed. hohoho.
sorry, starting to ramble. shld stop.
success factor 5/10: cuz its my fault i went out in the first place although the initially excuse was to catch the 3am match out. and that excuse IS quite valid.
stay home day 3:
AHH wednesday. very very successful in the beginning.
slept in late again, woke up abt 6plus. had udon with pasta sauce. yummy!
lazed ard. went online. went offline. watched the 9pm ch8 show with mummy who bought dinner back. she was happy i was home and was having dinner with her. went online. stayed online.
got bad bad headache. took 3 panadols, went back to slp after bathing. (sorry ppl who called n msged but i didnt reply)
bad bad mood. nothing to pop to cure badmoods. headache got better. still a little cranky. was wondering if it was stayhome syndrome. thinking. maybe i shld get out for a while. that was 11pm.
i weakened. temptation. lai lai lai. reached zouk at 2am. music SUCKED. crowd SUCKED. but it got better after a while when the retarded crowd left, music got sooo much better abt 330am!
went back to aks yst night. dancing. argentina holland. boooring.
you tiao da wang.
home.
success factor 1/10: cuz i got tempted to go out at the very last minute. badbadbad.
stay home day 4:
just woke up.
got good feeling.
today's gona be successful. :)
success factor 10/10: we'll see.
it starts with her back, cos tt's all he can see...
and she's breaking his hearrt, she still fucks like a tease
release to the sky, looking right str8 at his eye
and tell him tt now, she wished tt he wld DIE...
u'll nv touch him again.
so get what u can,
bleeding him dry,
just because he is a man
so gd when it ends, they will nv be friends.
i opened my big mouth again, but i hope i did the right thing, it might hurt, but i hope u'll be better soon... :)
so tired, just came back home from zouk, fucking shit night, so tired, and grouchy...
maybe cos i was wearing flats.
shldnt have went down...
was being rude and friendly at the same time, i cnat believe i said dun touch my friend, or i will kill u, haha, gd bye, yeah, ok.
just one of those nights...
day started really bad at abt 9 pm, all the way till now, think it's gonna be for the whole of this wk...
dun understand what's up with air kisses, fucking invented by the french, last wk, it was cute, but this wk, so not, just annoying. dun like anythign french, effiel tower, blah blahs.. stupid berets.
i'm tired, and i'm not gonna apologise for anything i said tonight or did, or tt i was putting on a big bad face.
nothing's going my way tonight, and i dun like it...
i miss sch...
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fuck lah, smtg wrong with my internet connection, and i need to register for my 2nd yr modules, way before i get my results... tmr, at 9 am, but i wunt be able to do SO!!!!!!!!!
and if i register late, i cant get the modules i want...
oh this is annoying... super pissed off, and i have to register from my com at home, cos i saved my password in this com!!!!!!!! yeah, and the sch webbie is damn diff to use, not user friendly at all, so yeah... ah fuck... urgh...
thanks u guys, everyone of u who wished me happy birthday, spent my birthday with me, treated me to stuff, bought me stuff. love u guys...
ok, i better go sleep now... i dunno what to do, decide when i wake up tmr...
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HAPPY BIRTDAY TO ME!!!!!!
first person to say happy birthday to me: derek
first person to say hp to me on msn: derek... haha
first person to say hp to me on hp : nicole... haha, we were talking on the phone and she spend the process of 19 to 20 with me
first person to say hp to me face to face: my sister
first person to say hp to me, by sms: sammy darling
first person to give me a present: my sister
first person who asked me what i wanted for my bd: kelvin, and he left for japan alr, HAHA
first person who spoke to me, without knowing it's my bd, stupid jaesen
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yucks lah, i have to pay for my own phone bill again, i paid for my earlier phone bill last mth, cos it exceeded two hundred, this mth, it's worse, i hit 300 over. and i've 10 hrs worth of out going calls for free plus dunno how many smses for free.
disgusting...
i actually wanted to go shopping, now i've one less dress, humph... this sucks balls.
hmmmm, ok, i cant remember what happened last night, waiting for sammy to come home and send me the pics, haha, i love sam. muah...
i just realised smtg, i am an alcoholic, fuck. i have cravings for alcohol when i didnt drink, not gd, not gd.
and i hate vodka, pls dun offer me vodka, i hate vodka, i alws puke when i drink vodka...
oh yeah, i'm moving end of this wk, yup, gonna be pretty busy this wk, gonna shift into andrea's estate, haha... oh yeah, and jennifer as well, she's a pretty gd cook, and she likes cooking, haha, i'm gonna be the friendy neighbour, hoho...
humpety humpety hum...
nicole's gonna bunk in with me from tues to friday, yay, cant wait. i love having a new girlfriend besides cheryl and grace, and she can get along well with cheryl too..
hahahaha, ANN!! DAHLING!
love ya love ya, muack muacks :)
had a good one??
partly glad that i didnt go down to mos in the end, cuz zouk was fun!! duno what i was doing half the time, just sitting ard, standing ard, but it was all good :)
i cant believe mark said he thinks i look damn fierce n tt hes scared of me. whahahaha. i think its damn funny, stupid boy.
STUPID MARK. i know youll read this u dumbass.
lovelove everybody!
phuture's music was good today! for like, the 5 10 mins i was there. hahahha.
gracie wacie, why never come down in the end, waited for u for a while to reply me. boo.
i've NV been so fucking high before, yupyup.and i'm hlad i'm home safe and not with some fucking guys, so aacording to al; the pplke, it's my unbofficialk bd celecbratiomn, yup, 0k ok, i;'m high, ok, u got what u wanted. very v very very, nv been like this before, i can barely do what i think i'm doing, okokokokok, i think the fucking taxi uncle stole my money, HAHA... okokokokok, whatever, i dun care, i', so screwed, i'm glad i'm home...
SO FUCKING SCREWED... and i know what he wants from me.... fucker, all of them, except my friends... yup, ilove my friends, the r est, all fuckers, i'm not interested in getting lsid, snd i',m super proud of nicole, winning all the damn prizes, ok, tt'ws it.
I"M SO SICK OF U GUYS!
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it took me a damn friendster bulletin to realise this.
(friendster bulletin! of all things..)
ive never cherished my parents enough. ive always complained about how they alws threatened me to pay my own hp bills, how they alws tried not to give me an advance on my allowance, how they alws refused to buy me this and that, how they alws nagged about the state of my life.
but ive never realised how much it took to be someone's parent. i guess you'll just never know what youve lost until you lose it, cliche as it may sound.
the people who have not read my friendster bulletin and reading this now instead, pls go read it. if you cant be bothered to, ill post it here for you. this clearly states "mum", but of course, people, pls include your dad too.
and i really cried after i read this, cuz i realised how much my parents really mean to me, after i read the last part. and i cant bear for my parents to leave this world, no matter whether theyre going to a better place. and cuz some of the stuff here (although not all) kinda related to me, so yeah.
mummy, daddy, i really love you guys a lot.
even though i make an effort to meet them every sunday, ive realised now that its just not enough, its just 4 freaking days out of 30 (a month). how much is that?? do they really see this as how much they mean to me? i really hope not...
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Message: Message: Message:
When you were 8 years old,
your mom handed you an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.
When you were 9 years old,
she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old she drove you all day,
from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old,
she took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked her by asking her to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old,
she warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.
When you were 13,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14,
she paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15,
she came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying till dawn.
When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags. You thanked her by saying goodbye outside the dorm so you wouldnt be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50,
she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, she quietly died.
And everything you never did
came crashing down like thunder on
YOUR HEART..
If you love your PARENTS & you thank them deeply,
repost
this bulletin saying "I Cried Because Of This"
If you don't... then you obviously don't care if your
parents die.
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I AM GOING LOCO AND I NEED TO RANT AND RAMBLE.
MY SCHOOL IS THE MOST FUCKED UP EVER
I HAVE A SEEMINGLY GAY LECTURER
HE CANNOT MAKE UP HIS MIND ABOUT WHEN TO DO PRESENTATION
I WANNA KILL HIM NOW
RAR!!!!
Mr (Name not exposed for confidential reasons), UP YOURS!
and as i bleed black tears,
i wonder whether u even saw me in the first place.
dont drink and drive,
smoke and fly. :)
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check out www.pandora.com...
pretty cool website, provided by jaesan, haha, thanks.
above and beyond or benassi??
hmmmmm.....
i'm abit confused now...
cheryl wants to go benassi, and heard above and beyond's pretty alright???
oh blah...
maybe i shld just stay at home and watch soccer, haha.
so damn tired again...........................................................
haha, yes. i love u too, so much... muackz, silly girl...
i haven seen u and grace in AGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.
yeah...
zouk again today.
hmmm, maybe moving isnt such a bad idea, but i know i'll miss marcus so bloody much.. humph.
the world is so fucking small, and my mouth is so fucking big, yeah.. but it's just harmless talk, haha.
i just made hansen go like so many wrong ways. haha, but nothing can beat cj. haha. my directions are so bad!!! i cant believe i went to the airport to pick up NOBODY!!!
blah...
cant believe justin knows emeline. so small.. singapore's so so so so so so small. haha.
so weird...
i cant sleep. yup...
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okay mood swing over!!! WHOOPPP!!!
im ME AGAIN!
EVERYBODY LOVES ME, IM SO FLY!!!!! hahahababaahaha!
farty naughty shorty. OHOH!
someone stop me from blogging due to boredom plss.
and btw, im not gona be something im not so dont change me, let me grow up at my own pace. u wldnt want to stunt my growth and be blamed if i become a straight boring retarded and cockfaced adult for the rest of my life and an old spinster in my old age ok.
my tv is spoilt. now i only can watch tv on the teensy tv in the kitchen.. bleah, its like a miserly 24 or 28 inches or something, or it might even be 20. well, not like i watch tv all that much, ive realised. hahaha. but i realised that a few inches do matter, duno why.
ting keeps telling me she hears cheering, but i found it funny that i dont. THEN i realised why, cuz old people dont watch soccer, hiakz.
oh well, im gona sleep.
i hate aust btw. how dare they. my poor love, japan. sighh.
KAKA SCORED!!!! :))))))))))
lovelove.
dbl o tmr, possibly. i need to get out of my sian mood, everyone;s been asking me why im behaving like that these days. ay i dont know why myself. i dont like dblo, but i love the songs they play. so YES im going. hahahaha.
sigh.
okay la, need to snap out of my depressed mood...
and ive realised i realised lots of things today.
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i'm feeling sad again... dunno y. hmmm, blah...
stupid pple, ask them to send me photos, until now still haven sent yet. sigh...
at alvin's place now watching soccer, thought it was the brazil match... got it all mixed up, it's at 3 am....
can hear the boys screaming outside... no mood to join in, at least when they watch soccer, they make comprehensible intelligent comments, and not vulgarities. yeah... i'm so bored..........................
and upset...
hmmm, zouk tmr? i dunno... u know it's alws when i dun feel like going, and i end up going, tt's when i end up having the most fun, haha, i am so weird...
yay, sat mos. but it'll probly suck, cos i dunno, it alws suck when there's some big name dj when i feel hyped to go.. smtg will just happen...
i feel like i'm being cheated, and there's no way out of it..
today was a complete waste of my time.. SERIOUSLY!!!!! and i ddint even catch a wink of sleep at all, went down with a hangover. blah, waste my cab fare money...
i wanna go swimming, or hmm, maybe even sentosa. marcus and gang will be having some soccer finals at sentosa, maybe i'll go, been promising him to go, for like ages...
something's missing, or maybe it's just me... think tt this wld last for some time. haven felt like this in ages and ages and ages.
feeeling kind angsty too, wanna beat someone up, i can feel the violence bubbling inside.
somebody get me a puke bucket, and some aspirins pls...
yucks, i'm SO gross to the point of grotesque...
humph, must be the onions in the prata last night...
damn the onions...
sigh... cannot sleep. have to get up in like 4 hrs time... blah!!!!!!!!
where are my shades when i'm going out in the afternoon!! knnb..
cant believe i'm still whining abt my shades.
well, cos it's the only one tt i like.
oh god, my life's abt sleeping, soccer, wine and beer, and whining abt getting up in the mid afternoon. SUCH A BUMMER, tsk tsk... haha...
YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!
benassi's coming to town on sat.. yup yup...
i'm so gonna be there, anybody who wants to go down, giveme a call.. HAHA!!
i'm high right now, blah... just pked damnit...
got high, went swimming, had supper, okay gd night..
muah muahz...
BENNY BENASSI @ MOS ON 17TH JUNE!!!!!!!!
be there or be square.
whahahahhahahahahahahaa.
p/s pls ignore previous post, i sound somewhat weird n demented for some reason. haha. im okay now :)
p/p/s & CAN ANYONE BELIEVE THE AUS-JAPAN MATCH?? i missed a good show near the end... oh what on earth happened... 3 goals in 6 mins?! the horror.
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im sick of this lifestyle.
i want something real. sometimes i feel like staying at home for the rest of my life cuz thats where the real thing is. u know all these superficialities, they dont last. everyone shld just learn how to cherish what they have and stop whining about stupid things which dont even mean anything.
why are we put on this world i ask, but i dont know. some people tell me its because god wants us to learn and find solutions to problems. to christians, they keep saying, pray n youll get what u want, but sometimes prayers dont get answered cuz god wants us to find our own way and not depend on him. but why? why on this world why on this planet why are trees trees and why are rocks rocks and why are people people? huh?
solids. tangibles.
i know im not in any position to say anything cuz i cant answer any questions but i ask questions with every question asked.
why is there a world cup why is there coffee why is there alcohol how come too much alcohol makes me high why do we need to rest why why why.
im angry with this world and i dont know why. nothing makes any sense if u think about it. why do people fall in love and why do people cant get what they want and others can. why shld we even be asking ourselves all these questions when theres no real answer.
why do some hold on to something long lost and why do others give up something they really want?
i dont even know whats fantasy and whats reality anymore. the line has blurred, theyre now mixed up. sometimes i dont even know whether something which happened has really happened or did i just dream it. like this morning, i received a msg which im not even sure i received, i checked my inbox it wasnt there n then i thought maybe i was dreaming but i remember so clearly i received it.
can someone explain this to me/
and i dont even remember who i talked to cuz everyone sounds the same and everyone looks the same. and i open up my closet and i see all the clothes there n i wonder why i even bought them n i dont have anything i can wear these days. and i look into the mirror and i see a girl with two eyes a nose and a mouth but everyone just looks like me.
and i think of the past and what has happened but i dont even know why they happened the way they did. and then, all the things i ever did, why i did them why i said the things i said before, what happened to make me who i am today.
and as im typing this i just received an email from mos. i dont even really like mos all that much why am i on their mailing list. and i dont even like clubbing all that much but im alws at some club or smth, ok i admit i like drinking though. huh, but why.
and why is money so impt to do things in life, why cant we pay off our debts with shells or smth., then everyone can just go to the beach n pick shells n pay off their gambling debts or whatever, n everyone will be rich n happy but wheres the point in that?
life is a vicious cycle, if not why else would there be hours and days and weeks and months? there will alws be a friday and a saturday, if u pass a friday its a sure thing that another friday is coming. there will alws be a march, and a july and a september, there will alws be a 1am and a 2am.
there will alws be prata and late night suppers. there will alws be vodka n coke n tequila.
nothing will change will it?
i feel like listening to graduation by vitamin c. i used to like tt song until ann told me something about it.
i think asking too many questions means i need to shop. retail therapy.
ive become tired of wasting my time
thinking about choices that ive made
cuz i cant move forward
while looking behind
the only thing i can do now is change the way
that i used to be
cuz now it seems crystal clear to me.
cuz youre so much more than a memory.
cuz youre so much more than a memory.
it wasnt fair, for me just to go
act like i knew what youve been through
cuz i wasnt there and ill never know
couldnt see from your point of view
but im doing all i can for you to see
that i understand.
cuz youre so much more than a memory
cuz youre so much more than a memory
so dont close the door
on what still can be
cuz youre so much more than a memory.
please dont go
cuz i finally know that the past is gone.
and that i was wrong.
cuz youre so much more than a memory
cuz youre so much more than a memory.
please dont go
cuz i finally know
that the past is gone
and i know i was wrong
that i was wrong.
hmmm, ok, i feel so sad suddenly...
received my first present today, a bright pink bikini, hmm, yeah, not really a fan of pink, but arh well, a girl can nv have too many bikinis, think i've got abt 4 now, funny though, i'm so not a swimming, sun, sand kind of person.i do dig swimming at night though. yeah, and i'm so bored of the first 3... hmmm, actually, a purple one wld be nice, pink's kinda bright and loud in a wrong way. not like gold and red, they're totally cool.
yeah... hmmm...
bored and sad. yup...
think i might actually REALLY go down to RELC tmr, yeah.. have to.
been sleeping in, the past few days, yeah, just tired, and lazy... quiet nights woth dvds and soccer, with my sweethearts. muah...
i feel like juicing right now.. haha.
maybe i'm sad becos i'm bored, just dun have the mood to do anything. hmm... haven been bored in ages, yeah... what a downer. oh well, as i alws said, u cant alws be happy, tt wld be weird.
hmmm, i better start some exercising soon, been eating way too much.
hi.
finally ended work. 11 excruciating days.. but its now over!! goody goody.
been going out into the wee hours of the morning during the whole work week, surprisingly didnt faint from tiredness during work. bleah. club club club sian sian sian.
went to dxo yst cuz it was nearby, after i ended work, bloody entrance cost 18bucks, which sucks cuz i dislike dxo. who on earth would want to pay 18 freaking bucks to go into dxo??? forgot have to pay for entrance somemore, didnt even think before going down.. met jeremy there, went off with my little little sister. hohoho.
so super boring inside n i was getting super annoyed cuz they kept playing stupid pop songs. .... hmm. wanted to go up to the dj console and slap the guy inside who kept screaming into the mike thinking hes damn funny n witty, yea my foot, that was the most most annoying part. we were all boring ourselves to death inside, hahahaha duno why we stayed.
anyway.
im a nice girl.
bye.
cuss count: 0
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its a sick conspiracy between cheryl yeo and itunes.
IM HOOKED ON SIENTELO! (BETTER LATE THAN NEVER!)
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oh yeah, brotherhood, awesome show... so bittersweet, hmmm, haha.. my fav word...
cant believe i didnt watch it in the theatres... really really good show... hmmm, baby was so baby yeah... baby was so poor thing in the movie. he's not my baby, but just tt he was so babylike in the show. he's missy yeo's baby, haha. mine's edison.
love double tick
bloody, hmmm, yeah big tick
i love my brother, i wld do the same for him, and yeah, my parents and sister as well, but especially for my brother. he's so cute!! he's huge now, his palms can almost cover mine now...
gone were the days when he stumbled arnd, biting me. YES!! biting me, taking pieces of meat from me... hmmm, yeah.. he loves me tonnes too...
yay...hmm, watched my first world cup'06 today.. germany and coasta rica, boys betted, and won, yay.. i just gave them my moral support, i promised my mum nv ever to bet ever again. yup, and till now, i haven broken my promise, love my mum...
was my mum and dad's anniversary today, we had dinner tog, seems like we haven had dinenr tog for the longest time, everyone is like running here and there...
"i'm just a stub on ur bed post, and u're just a line in my song"
hmmmm, so i wonder who is the one losing out?? maybe nobody, haha...
lyrics from fall out boy...
ok, byebye, got to wake up early tmr...
♥
Hmmm, zouk was fun, dinner was ok,not too bad. Had fondue and my fav juice, and someone who nv fails to interest me, as in it’s not boring, but yeah, not in a relationship sense. He fascinates me in some perverse sense. So yeah, probly gonna eb one of my tenyrs time friends, cos everything’s so funny and weird with him, not gonna go there. Not gonna anything, what a dick head. Yeah, I dunno. He said he changed, but I dun think so, and I dun think I’ve ever changed, still the same old, yeah, he is the same old too. Hmmm, ah well, who cares.
Met Nicole and Norman, and the usual gp, marcus and Charlene, Cheryl, grace and hansen’s friends, yeah. Phuture was so overly crowded, with all the stupid ns boys, poping, and all tt… got a bit too way over crowded for me, and I went off to look for Kelvin and his friends. Yeah… went for supper with Nicole, Kelvin and Norman. Hmmm, haha. Yeah, Kelvin knows what I’m thinking. Probably going down on fri or sat, or both, I dunno, need a bit of zouk. Real zouk, not with all the stupid ns boys arnd, totally, did not enjoy myself…
Yeah, as for momo and mos, I’m glad tt I didn’t go there, cos, I donot like momo and mos.. yeah… cheers to all those tt were there, haha.. I’m glda I didn’t waste my time
I mean I alr wasted my time, I was so dumb today, yeah, fucking world record, even for me, I actually brought my gate lock out, with me to dinner at Oscars. Yeah, I discovered it when I was looking for my cigs, and guess what, the lock was with me, and the fucking cigs were at home. Like… … so I alr took a cab down, to town, took a cab back home, yeah, all the fucking way to the east, and yeah, all the fucking way back, to town. Luckily Kelvin sent me back. Haha, yeah… dumb me. Wld be alright if I was cash rich, but yeah, I wonder how do I get all the money to do stupid things and buy stupid cigs… hmmm, yeah, I’ve nice friends, haha… yay… silly Kelvin offered to bring me to japan, ALL expenses paid for, even the air ticket, hmm, yeah, becos I’m only 19, yeah, I cant, blah… and my parents dun like him, haha. Ah well… maybe next yr… oh yeah, I remember he was supposed to bring me to Europe last yr, but we fell out, HOHO… damn girl…
Sigh, I’m SUCH a girl, fuck, I think I’m mad. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha.. oh yay, hse rocks, mambo played ONE cool hse song though, yay, awesome…
oh oh oh, i cant wait to party with yuey when he's back, still my fav... muah, i better be ur fav, aside from all the commotion tt i make when i'm upset and extremely high, i cant control my emotions... we're gonna get so highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
pls bring back ur friend's white boys mj set...
yeah i thought i erm, quit mj, but yeah, alright man, i'm back, haha, sometimes.. been playing for the past two nights.
♥
i love you babies. my 2 babies. you know who you are.
muahh.
my results r out, and im early in checking them this time.
did oh so wonderfully. so wonderful my results, very good.
i know i cant blame anyone but myself for my own results la ok. but its not my fault i can be such a blur cock sometimes. i blame the alcohol, but i blame myself for the intake. fuck la, talkin nonsense alr. i dont blame anything, except my lack of discipline. okok byebye im goin to slp.
♥
cant sleep again, back to the old days, when i drink alcohol, i cant sleep.. had a session with grace, her friend chad, and elgin.. elgin's nice, i like having beers with elgin...
got alil agitated last night. spoke too much i feel. shldnt have, it's all private stuff.
need to meet up with both female babies tog more often, i miss them.
i cannot let myself get bullied all the time by u anymore. it's ridiculous tt u dun feel bad. dun take me for granted, when enough's enough, i'll just run away. will u even care? or just run to me, when things are bad. dun take advantage of my love for u as a friend. i love u not becos u're a brat, i love u cos u're my friend. even though, u're a cb head most of the time. i love it when u're normal, not fucking cranky, then it just seems like u morphed into hitler. i hate hitler.
♥
didnt meet chok today, was still sleeping, and he wanted to meet SO early, hmm, so we postphoned it again!!!
met martin though, we went to look for grace and cheryl at suntec, poor babies... working their asses off. haha. and their stupid mc friend said tt i look like a spider monkey, humph.. yeah ok, whatever.
we went arnd window shopping and didnt get my present, humph, nvm, next time, haha...
went down to meet vyasa and gang, haven met my fav bunch of boys in the longest time...
i'm so super duper sad, vyasa's leaving next yr, going to uk, king's college for law, happy for him, yeah, but i feel so sad... yeah... hmmmmm... ... blah, i swear i will cry buckets when he leaves...
oh yeah, i heard pot black's closing down like either tmr or smtg, hahaha...
supposed to go with vyasa, we planned... but yeah, i so screwed my first yr results... ... my pagoose's leaving me, tt's lil red indian baby, if i'm not wrong....
jo was so sweet and tired again, haha... muah... sweetiepie.
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
haha, i'm so happy, i cant sleep... i keep thinking abt my gorgeous dress and how good it'll look, yeah, haha, it's a long sexy sexy sexy dress.... yeah.. :) haha, oh i cant for my friends to bring me out shopping for my birthday...
and yes, YUEY TAN!!!!!! u have to get me a present too... i dun care... i didnt know u were coming back... and i didnt want u to air mail a present all the way from aussie... sigh, only coming back for a wk, u suck... i was just looking at the bali thingy online, seems not too bad as well. well, cheryl, grace and hansen??? bah... oh well, next time, then yuey.
gonna get my first present tmr, martin's bringing me shopping for a trucker cap, actually i alr saw two alr, one's lime green and bling, hoho, the other one's purple and gold with butterflies...
yay, i can yo anytime i wanna... :) :) :) hmmm, but i dun really suit the yo image, oh well, whatever goes...
i was shopping with gavin darling on fri evening, got quite a few ideas how my new wardrobe shld go.. hmmmm, i need cash to go shopping, haha, so yeah... oh dun worry, i'll clear all my debts before tt.
also meeting my sweetiepie chok tmr for dim sum, i cant wait, haven seen him for so long!!!!
he's asks me the like funniest qns, like ""were u wearing a bra? when i met u near ur place at the beach when we went for a beer?" " can i have ur no, so i can talk to u at night?" haha, idiot, but chok's special, i know he didnt ask me those qns cos he was teasing me or what so ever, more in an innocent way. :)
yeah, listenning to feel good songs now yeah, happy boys and happy girls.. haha...
i still dun like hitting the big 2 0. hmmm...
i'm damn happy, i keep thinking abt my dress......................................................................................
Ive got a feeling you could use a little smile
hoping it would stay there for just a little while.
Making a lot of noise up there, throw your hands up in the air.
I don't want to waste my time on simple little things
I'd rather stay here all the night with everyone who sings.
Happy boys and happy girls, we'll be.
We are the happy boys and girls.
Happy boys and happy girls, we'll be.
So happy, yeah!, so, so happy, yeah!
Happy boys and happy girls, we'll be.
things tt make me happy today:
1) my dress
2)my lovely mum, i had a long talk with her today, abt me and my worries and my probs
3)my fantabulous friends: i hit them with the love on friendster, some, anyway. i still love alot more...
4)yuey's coming back, yay, haha, well, just for one wk, but yeah... better then nothing, since i wunt be going over to adelaide
5)my first present tmr
6)meeting chok darling
7)meeting gavin, marcus, jake. yst.. yeah... haven seen my darling marcus in a while...
8)oh yeah, gotta go see some nice bare back tops from kai, decorated by strings of pearls at the back... yum... found this voucher...
9)i just had supper, hohohohohohohoho. my mum's so smart, she bought two dinners for me, knowing i wld be hungry later on
10)rested the whole day today... yup ;) so relaxing... didnt go for my classes though, hope dion wldnt get pissed with me, or hmmm, they alr think i've an attitude prob, oh well, when u dun care, u dun care, so yeah, not gonna put up a big show for them anyway. i've better things to do, just tt i paid for those freaking classes, shld have. aw shucks... alr missed half the course, i wonder if i can get my money back. i really cant be bothered to attend, i mean sat morning?!?!?!?!? friday nights are impt to me.
♥
wah lau, y cannot post up the other half.. blah...
oh yeah, i saw this gorgeous gorgeous dress. goes so well, with my skin colour, haha...
MY BIRTHDAY"S COMIN SOON!!!!!
19th June
yeah, i'll be working on the 19th of june to 23th of june... humph...
ok babies, i want dinners, lunches... yeah???? no clubbing for birthdays.. i dun believe in noisy birthdays...with half fuck friends. guess i cant make it for tim's bbq, his birhday's same as MINE!!!!!!!! hmmm, maybe drop by for a while, wanted to like chap into his bbq, so i dun have to do anything, HAHA... yeah... lazy..................
i want, jap, russian, ocars( i want juice), dim sum... hmmm, yeah, see what other cravings i'll have... ok, book me soon, HAHA... sorry... i cant like "hey! u wanna have dinner with me? it's my birthday!" okok, call me... love love love love u guys..
well, dinner with babies is a must, if u're my baby, u better treat me to dinner or lunch. wahahhahaha,
yeah. awesome, damnit, why why why must it be tt particular period??? blah... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........................
PPLE WHO HAVE TO GET ME A PRESENT:
1)cheryl
2)kelvin
3)vyasa
4)sam
5)marcus
6)manross
7)gavin
8)jicheng
9)derek
hoho... yeahhhhhhh............. and then i'll act so shocked to get a present, i mean surprised, hahahhahahahha... yay, muah muah... thanks in advance!!!!!!
ok, the rest can also get me a present, but if the above mentioned 4 doesnt, i'll hunt u down and never ever ever ever speak to u again. HHOHOOHOHO...
oh dear, i'm getting so excited, and pls no alcohol for birthday. i'm alr dieing half way...
oh yeah, i NEED a big bag, yup...
damn, i think i've got boobs for cheeks, haha....
smile alws... yeah..
alright, gotta bathe, haha...
yes yes, i've been talking to u guys when i was dirty...
gonna snuggle up now in my comforter for like 4 fucking hrs then wake up...
hmmmmm, yeah.. tonight was fun, yeah...
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, weird, i'm feeling weird right now...
so i was fucked up a yr back, i dunno. i think, i wasnt, i did, felt everything tt was in my heart, yeah abit too much sometimes. but hell yeah, at least i wasnt hidding stuff...
so apparently now, my teeth's way more yellow due to my incessant smoking,haha, yeah tt's true. and yeah, more grown up, and sensible...
dunno... well tonight was fun, yeah, a whoel min was SO awesome, not gonna say which min, haha... blah, i feel like a sch girl again... yeah.... hmmmmmm...
sexy... haha
went to the porridge place before zouk, got reminded of mr yuey, but yeah, my phone cant seem to sms him, so yeah...
blah...
ok, night, gotta go sleep wake up early tmr...
nights, babies..
DONT ASK ME FOR ANYTHING unless youre ann or grace or anyone i love n treasure.
i hate people for fucking judging me if u dont know me, or even if u do know me, u still judge me. i mean, what kind of person is that?? if i dont even know u, dont judge. and if i do, u shldnt even be judging me in the first place. u let me find out ure judging me by the way i look or by the way i do things then u can just fuck off.
seriously.
and ive had enough people coming up and judging my friendship with ann n grace. if ure not even ann n grace then just fucking shut up, i dont need u to tell me what to do u fuckers.
im just damn pissed off that mere strangers come up to me or EVEN WORSE, PPLE I KNOW say stupid things that they shldnt even be saying. come on la, u wanna say something about my friendship with my friends i can say something bad about urs. no one is fucking perfect ok. get that in ur damn heads.
and to the people who say stuff about me even when they know me can just fuck off cuz i dont need u in my life. so what if i have a bond with u. u can go deal with ur own problems urself, since im not so nice n not so innocent n whatever else u wana say about me.
got that? :)
wonderful.
i love ann n grace.
dont ever test my friendship with them. u wana find urself dead in hell u can go right ahead.
♥
ok, decided tp burn cds for my honeys... my kelvin and my vyasa
sexy hse for kelvin, and indie rock for vyasa...
i like indie rock.. nothing wrong with indie rock, mr sam toh!!!!
rock's awesome, so chilled out, so bittersweet. yeah, i'm in love with the word bittersweet, it just sums out everything!!!
hmm, yeah, will burn another cd for sam.... hmmm, he's into emo rock, dunwan him to mope arnd though. babies, drive me arnd. want to input MY music in their car, vyasa not so often now... yeah, but he's my best guy friend, although i dun see him much anymore,now, but we will, we will... i wonder if he has seen x man2 yet, i haven.. i miss DVD NIGHTS!!!! MARCUS!!! hurry up, hurry up, wanna watch moo's al pacino collection... we go borrow ok?? muah...
yeah, meeting chok on sunday for dim sum, cant, another of my special, dun really meet up, but will alws be there and will alws love me and i love him, friends. still can remember the first time we really talked, haha.. muah... pity though, i lost his first penned letter to me, and yeah, the "special" bill to me... haha, i was his "taka" in sch.. muah...
shlders are aching...
so tired, just woke up, due to the incessant calls, didnt even go out at all, got home at 7 pm... since like early morning, didnt even sleep last night, cldnt sleep. was just tossing and turning the whole night...
tired... dunwana get tied down, but if i dun, i lose all the benefits, hmmmm...
not guys, yeah, again i add.
didnt even go to zouk, for heineken green room, shld have asked andrea to go with me. but kelvin told me it was boring... haha...
yay, gonna have quiet nights and sleep like normal pple, and the occassional alcohol binge. feel like a beer now though, need smtg cold, slighty bitter coursing though my throat down to me stomach... haha... plus, it's my 2nd fav colour, gold, haha. i quit my mj craze alr, kinda feel bored when i play now, so i just dun play at all, haha. but suddly kelvin's all into mj and shit.. stupid...
oh yeah, gotta go down to relc tmr with marc in the afternoon to hand in my mc and letter, ahven typed the letter yet, hmmm, tmr...
♥
blah, not my day today, yeah.........
fucking missed everything by like a min....
freaking broke, trying my best not to take cabs, so yeah, i wanted to take the last train home, but i missed it by a fucking min, just becos i wanted to smoke..
yeah, so i took a cab home, then i missed mr wee's call by a fucking min, when i was alr on the cab home, blah...
oh well, so broke alr, still can spend seventy bucks in like 4 hrs, no shopping, just having mere drinks and a measly pasta, i was trying to go budget alr, sucks... bloody hell, gotta clear my debts, fast fast, collect my money fast fast. yup...
tired tired today, running all over again today. at least i cut short my night, by heading home, although i shld be watching x men 3 right abt now...
alright, hmmmm. gotta sleep early, gotta wake up early tmr, at 9!!!!!!!am!!!!
yeah, maybe go meet kelvin for the movie tmr...
cheryl boo boo and grace baby gotta work tmr, for like 12 days... hmmm..... bah, only angel left not doign anything. SOON SOON!!!!
ok, nights.
